"sole" searching

Serious issue: I am overly attached to a particular pair of old shoes... Over the past 5 years, I've worn these shoes to work, on dates, to my favorite place (Wally World), family gatherings, outings with friends, & everywhere and anywhere in between. These shoes were even there as I said goodbye to my Grandma :(. They used to be a perfect fit... and would gently & easily slide onto my feet. However, as the years have passed, I seem to have outgrown them... more and more each year... yet somehow I still manage to squeeze into them every now and then because even though they aren't comfortable, in some weird way they bring me "comfort". My toes are all jumbled inside, screaming to be released from restraints and confinement that I have inflicted upon myself because I am too stubborn to just get rid of these played out, old, dirty, smelly, ugly, worthless shoes! I would donate them to Goodwill but there are some things that just aren't even worth passing along to someone else. Granted, someone else may want to wear the shoes... its easy to become impressed with the initial charm they present; a false and temporary charm. But there comes a day, in every woman's life, to be out with the old and in with the new... And after doing some serious soul searching, I realize that there is a pair of shoes out there perfectly made for me and those shoes are going to take better care of my feet than any shoe has! Besides, its far past time for me to do some real SOLE searching... so let the shoe shopping begin ;)

PUT IT ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hadn't seen you in a while until today... I think it has been about 2 1/2 months. I was nervous... and admittedly embarassed to approach you because I wasn't sure how you'd receive me. Not to mention the fact that I am carrying some extra baggage now but you look the same; so full of life and excitment! Yet surprisingly, you welcomed me with open arms. There was comfort in your embrace; kinda like the comfort felt from a bowl of hot fudge brownies topped with butter pecan icecream... like the ones I've been drowning my sorrows in lately. Thankfully, your comfort came fat free so I began to indulge myself in you.

The rainy weather outside had already moistened my skin but within the first 5-7 minutes of our interaction, I was drenched from head to toe. You tightly grabbed hold of my thick, brown thighs and pulled me in close by my bulging waist & gently massaged my love handles. My skin began to burn but in some twisted way, I liked it. I wanted to look in your eyes but couldn't... not yet. I allowed you to dominate me as I tried to gain confidence in my stride. You took over my body as if you owned it and I was simply a visitor standing on the outside of myself watching helplessly as you violated me.

After 30 minutes, sometimes fast and sometimes slow...up and down...breathing deep and hard... I realized that I had to step it up & stand up for myself; prove to be a worthy opponent. I began to feed off of your energy as I wrestled my way on top, placed my hand firmly on your chest and began to pounce; thrusting all 169 pounds of chocolate goodness against your steel frame. Finally feeling comfortable enough to release all inhibitions, I ripped off the head wrap that contained my tiny afro, threw my arms high above my head as if I were riding the best roller coaster ever and ooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............
shoot! That was the best 50 minutes I've had in a long time! You really put it on me...

Thanks Lifestyle Family Fitness... I need to hit the gym more often ;)

Itisha is "in the building" LOL

So, due to the 5 inches or so of snow & being confined to my home for the past several days, I decided to start a blog :) Thanks to those of you who decide to follow me or even just stop by every now & then to read my random thoughts on life.

Fair warning: Do not be surprised by the differences in each blog. Some may be deeply spiritual, some comical, some with the "f%$k the world" attitude, some painful but all extremely honest & real because I don't know how to be anything else.

I refer to myself as complicated simplicity... I am a very deep thinker and analyst while I also appreciate the simple things in life and am fairly easy to please.

I am who I am and praying to become who God would have me to be. I strongly believe that God ALWAYS has a plan and purpose and that I am exactly where He wants me to be at this moment in my life.

Love me or hate me, take me or leave me... this world didn't make me so its surely not going to break me ;) I am extremely excited about wonderful blessings pouring into my life in 2010 so best believe, I'm going to get it! Negativity is not welcome as I am ONLY accepting POSITIVE energy :)

So grab a seat & prepare yourselves for an awesome ride!!!!!